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well not really much of an update here. im just in the mood to reminisce about the things i used to love back then.

On Memory Lane:
--My Stay in Sendai
--Sweet Holiday in Lombok
--Weekend in New England

In Recent:
--one of my old friends requested i sing in his birthday a duet version of: I've Never Been to me so, practice, practice practice.. ^^'
--remembered how much he loved Lee Ji-Yeon's voice as well as Jjang Na-ra, Lena Park, BoA, As One etc.... I think I'm Also liking DJ Isak, but thats a long shot.
--japanese/anime thingies : decided to watch a marathon of Guren Lagannnnnn because recommended it. also maybe Land before time too~
--working as an Animator is really hard, but i'm loving it.
--i also love talking to some old friends like


In My Dreams:
--trying really hard to remember my dreams. dreamt of some people who are writing something on me the other night. and suddenly, after these people are done writing on me, only one is left and that person is *drum rolls* ...
--last night i had a weird dream, but THAT i can remember all the details to that. Specially the Mature content *gasp*

.....in details:
...Rob is back. he walked in our house and asked if he could stay here. yes i let him. although he looks the same, he was now a stranger to me. there was something different and its as if i was under his thrall, under the spell of his charms. unlike before, i had no power to resist. he wants me, i know it, i feel it, its dangerous, but i cant do anything except do as he say.

we were at his room, on the bed and he was holding me from behind and i was enjoying myself melting in his arms, then suddenly he said "I wanna be with you" then just before i could react, the kissed my shoulders and said "will you come with me?" and stared at me with those gorgeous puppy dog eyes hoping for a "yes" from me.

i said "yes, of course." (i was under his thrall,remember?) O_o'

just like that he took my hand and we were back at his place, everything's the same except its empty now, no butler, no maids, no hand maidens, no guards, knights, nothing. just him and me.

as we were walking along the paths where we once have trodden, reminiscing memories that we have shared together, i asked him "honey, what happened?".. he didn't reply. i asked again "where's everybody?".. then, he kept quiet, still and pulled me close. he held me tight and as soon as he released me from the tight embrace, it was sunset. i looked at him with questioning eyes "whats wrong?" i asked. he smiled and gently pressed his lips against mine, "nothing to worry about" he said in reply with a gentle smile.


t'was night time and he took me somewhere, a glass ballroom than seemed so familiar to me. there are festivities going on in the place. i asked if i could go to the comfort room and he led the way. as i was walking down the hallways to find where my beautiful Rob was, i saw a sign that said "Festival of the Arts" then, i felt happy, coz somehow i knew that Rob took me there because he knows what i loved the most-Arts.

as i walk in the glass ballroom, there were a band, an orchestra getting ready to play. my eyes were focused on the stage and its glorious decorations, i bumped into someone, someone i knew from my past. it was AC, my high school classmate, at fellow artist. He was much taller than i remembered him, more mature than he was back then, more handsome and good looking too. he was dressed well, very elegant, he's probably one of the exhibitors in the area..

we were staring at each other, probably surprised on how greatly the both of us has changed over the years. just when he realized that I was Aya, his former "kakulitan" he took my hand and dragged me somewhere where we could talk and catch up. we were backstage, another group was setting up. AC stood up and help out his hand as an offer to help me get up from where we were sitting. "That's my cue" he said. "for what?" he pointed at the stage.

"whut? you're performing? i though you draw? O_o'" i asked further.

"yes, i draw, but darling, dont you remember? i play the piano and violin too"

"you did? ..i dont.. remember."

"i used to play it for you."

then he added, "but before i go up there, i have to be dressed properly. . have you seen my coat?" he asked me as he were putting on his white gloves. i looked a him with a blank face "no. i didn't. what does it look like?" he leaned towards me and kissed me on the forehead "princess, why so serious?" he asked, then he smiled sweetly. he went up the stage to perform without the coat.

as i watch him do his thing on stage, i realized that Rob might be looking for me, but as soon as i turned around to look for him, a guy grabbed me by the waist. it was him! my beautiful Rob.

"i saw everything" Rob said.

"saw what?" i asked. .."everything. i knew it, he liked you even then." he added

i blushed in the sight of how hot my beautiful Rob was looking so jealous of my childhood friend. i then, tried to say something to reassure him that im his girl, as much as i want to say something, nothing came out. i just kept quiet.

"i'll take care of him." he said.

those words made me tremble in horror to think of the thinks Rob might do to AC. "what do you mean 'take care'"? i asked out of curiosity and hope that i might be wrong. he just, pulled me close and kissed me on my forehead. "you're mine." he said. shocked, surprised, and with dis belief.. i woke up....

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Hey lady, you lady, cursing at your life
You're a discontented mother and a regimented wife
I've no doubt you dream about the things you'll never do
But, I wish someone had talked to me
Like I wanna talk to you.....

I've been to Georgia and California and anywhere I could run
I took the hand of a preacher man and we made love in the sun
But I ran out of places and friendly faces because I had to be free
I've been to paradise but I've never been to me

Please lady, please lady, don't just walk away
'Cause I have this need to tell you why I'm all alone today
I can see so much of me still living in your eyes
Won't you share a part of a weary heart that has lived million lies....

I've been to Niece and the Isle of Greece while I've sipped champagne on a yacht
I've moved like Harlow in Monte Carlo and showed 'em what I've got
I've been undressed by kings and I've seen some things that a woman ain't supposed to see
I've been to paradise, but I've never been to me


Sometimes I've been to crying for unborn children that might have made me complete
But I took the sweet life, I never knew I'd be bitter from the sweet
I've spent my life exploring the subtle whoring that costs too much to be free
I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me

I've been to paradise
But I've never been to me




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